Welcome back? Of course I need to make a big apology. This blog was forgotten long time now, and it’s not fair because so much has happened… SO MUCH.

Today’s story is about one crucial and repetitive subject: Friendship.

Not only is about the friendships but also about  growing up and learning to let go.

Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m living two lives, like I’m being two people, thinking with two different heads and brains. Is it something repressed? Something I didn’t let go?

Now that my “life fairytale” is happening: no drama, no conflicts, no wrong people, everything must be good right? Then why is this “fairytale” not good? Not complete? Not fun?

I’ve been daydreaming waiting for the day that YOU take your place as my friend, as my shoulder that I’ve been waiting so much. I got rid of people that seemed useless, like they didn’t give a shit about me. And I left all behind, I lost myself and became someone else.

I’m lost and daydreaming. Im just right back at the beginning. Is this race ever going to end?
Old friends, new friends… what’s the difference. It’s just the friend part that is REQUESTED for the job.
I thought I knew you so well.
And just to be clear, of course, I’m not hurt or disappointed. I’m just a big whole, a deep cave. I have no attitude, no vision, no plan.
I’m lost and daydreaming, hoping for the day you realize you’re losing me in all of this.

I guess there’s only one thing left to do…

It’s been a long time right? Well what can I say, even I need vacations from all of this and college.

Well to be completely honest this week I’ve been sick and above that I’ve been planning and it’s just a non-stopping action.

Here’s what happened. Sometimes life doesn’t give you what you wanted and that gets you very angry right? Sometimes you find yourself torn in plans and more plans and just trying to organize your ideas, and at the end you end with nothing.

“Life is what happens when your busy making plans”, I find this true now. You must let things run its natural course. I am going to start living by my own drum and let this be my life motto. Let things be, let things happen and let life happen around you. I am not saying to just live by you guys! Don’t be a complete reckless person, just for once loosen up.

I’m starting to make my own symphony and I’ll keep on writing my life story, I’ll let life strike me once so I can learn, I’m gonna be whatever I can be so I can grow up but most importantly I’ll keep on rocking so that YOU can see that If I COULD, YOU CAN!

Get it right, get a perspective, strengthen your voice to so it can be an intelligent and a LOUD one. Be playful yet careful, be aggressive but gentile, be yourself and love every aspect of it. Get a voice and never let it go.

Have fun , we only live once

Don’t live to work, Work to live, get moving, get active, do it today: LIVE.

Song of the day: P!nk – Raise Your Glass

Guys! How have you been? I hope you are enjoying this weeks of relaxation, off of school, with family and friends.
You are probably asking yourself why haven’t I done more posts right?
Well to be honest, I don’t know how to answer that question you guys, it’s been a more exciting year, very busy but still so far so good. But the main reason I haven’t done so much writing is probably because I’ve been lost, searching for new adventures, new people, new things!
You know me, I can not stay still in one place.

But anyhow, I always have a story for you don’t I? So here’s today story.

What makes life so interesting? And no let’s not hold ourselves with this word, of course it can be also intriguing, or crazy, or lovely. Anyway, what is it with this life that makes our blood run through our veins and make us jump, scream, laugh, and love?
Is it the people that surrounds us? Is it the moment you are living and that feels so worth the while? Or is it just something that just IS?

You know, I think it’s just a lot more than just words and actions, I think life is just to meant to be, with no expectations, no regrets, not holding on to moments but not just living by, it is SO MUCH MORE.
It’s a disposition, you gotta let it go, inhibit yourself and let things be

Life is full of so much, why waste it? Love and let yourself be loved by all the people who really matter, walk, jump and run, make a use of those legs, hug, punch, because when you get older and they start to hurt you’ll know it’s because you’ve used them and very much!

Don’t let any chance go away, don’t let opportunities of a lifetime walk you by, learn from your mistakes and be cheerful, LIFE IS WORTH IT.

For some of you, life might not have been so good, but remember GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT AND LEARN TO BE PATIENT AND KIND. You gotta believe this, you have to be your own lucky charm, because happiness is within you and love is all around you. You just gotta learn how to see it and live it.

But remember, you have to make the first move, be the brave one, be the honest one, be the patient one. and you’ll see.

It All Starts With YOU.

Trending topic: Being dumped or dumping someone.

That’s right guys, it’s that time of the year in which the new year’s couple (some) get a time off; for some and for others it may have been a This is it!

Its funny how love and relationships get more and more complicated, frustrated, pointless and maybe worth it?
I wanna believe that for my fellow friends, some single, others in the process and the others who just don’t know where they are, that there’s still some hope left after bad relationships or a bad break up.
I wanna believe that they still think of love and it’s derivatives. Though it may not be worth wasting or adjusting or changing yourself, in the end It does.
Because you gave all you had within you and in your power to make someone else happy or loved, that for me is something to be proud and pleased to say. Sometimes, it’s just not enough, sometimes the pieces just don’t fit anymore, sometimes you can’t give the whole 100% and more, sometimes… just sometimes Life happens.
Don’t worry my friends, love will get you back just like it did the first time. Give yourselves a break too. “Life is just a series of adjustments” (-Anonymous)
And not to be worried because I’m here for you

Yours truly.

Hello again! I’m sorry it’s been a while I know, and I owe you a lot of explanations.

You see when this 2011 arrived, I never thought a lot could change in 1 month. Because when my calendar marked January 1st, I never imagined that  a month after I would be starting a whole new project in life, and I never imagined myself with such a shortage of timing.

So here’s what has happened:

College is my new thing. I can’t be doing a lot of stuff I expected or that I wanted to do before this semester begun. I’ve been busy in homeworks, and investigating, doing research, and more homeworks. I guess this has become a habit.
I hope it’s a good habit I’m acquiring!

Believe it or not, I miss having love and someone to love lately so yeah, you’ll be hearing a lot of love and quests and stuff this month and on. I want you to recognize my love browser:

First, I found love and I had a pretty fun time with it, then I missed used it  and took a little control of it. Later love didn’t want me and I wanted it, but I never fought for it. I remained single for a long time now but now I’m sure that I want to get back on track with this amazing and warm feeling. So Love, here I come.

If you can recall, I asked for guidance this 2011, and so far it’s all good.

This is just a brief post you guys, because as you may notice by now I have become a busy man.
But remember, whenever your lost or feel insecure, or just want to hear out an opinion or someone to talk to I’M HERE and ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU.

Remember that A friend is a person who you trust and that will always be on your journey.

And no matter what,  I will always gonna let you know  what’s going on in this crazy life of mine.

There is always going to be a what if in your day because you’re constantly making choices, whether if it’s a simple choice like deciding what to eat or even to decide what jeans to wear: blue ones or dark ones? and by making all of this multiple decisions, you are constantly changing your destination.

That my friends is the wonder of life and the mystery that lies in the universe

I don’t believe that there’s a path or a designated journey for each and every one of us, what I do believe is in the power of the universe to let us see our whole spectrum of choices and possibilities so that we can decide which way to take.

Because each moment we are opening and closing different doors to new possibilities, new surprises, and new memories.

And by the end of every day , we are left in the same corner of our mind wondering what if.

Did all of you cheered for a great, happy new year?

I hear you! Let’s make a review of the past 2010.

As you may all remember, my 2010 main purpose was for a NEW BEGINNING, and yes I succeeded. I became a person, a better person I would like to say, a better friend, and a better man. Although I had my slips here and then, the general view looks quite good.

I hope all of you accomplished at least one of your main purposes of your 2010! If not, don’t worry, here’s another year, hopefully, so you can do better and try harder!

I wanna give thanks to god to allow me to have another year surrounded by my family & friends. Although 2010 was a hard year, and not to forget that now some of our friends are gone, I wanna remind you that every single thought that you work in your mind it can become true. You need to succeed your expectations, to believe in yourself. You have been given one more year to do the things you didn’t do last year. So cheers to that!

And now, my 2011 resolutions are:

1. Become a better sibling.
You may all wonder why did I put this as my #1 resolution? Well in order to be a better person, generally, I need to start caring and helping my true roots which is and always will be my family.

2. This 2011 is all about finding and becoming myself.
A new beginning is yet starting for me, and as I go along this life and with new friends, I hope to find my true being and become that person I am destined to be. I used to think that I had it all that I was living the “Teenage Dream”. I was wrong.

So 2011 is To Finding that Teenage Dream! TO GUIDANCE.

Raise all your glasses and lets drink to that!

So that anyone of you can accomplish anything that comes to your mind. Because everyone of us deserves to find that teenage dream and live it, with NO REGRETS!

And to start this new year awesomely you may want to know some stats on your people right? Well some of you may or will be starting a relationship, others may be going SOLO for a while but not to be worried this are not loners, they will find the way back.

And for others, drama is finally waving its white flag, FINALLY break time!

You’ll see, this year is our year lets make it happen.

To 2011!

Things are looking up, oh finally!

Song of the day: Looking Up – Paramore

Frustration. Something we can’t prevent from feeling, something unexpected (twisted), something weird.

I have good news to all of YOU!

Do you remember LOVE? It still exists.

You see, (#quoting) “if we’re always looking in the rear view mirror it’s hard to keep our eyes on the road ahead” (anonymous.) And I find this phrase so true. We as human beings are stubborn and that is the main reason we get so blind sometimes, and maybe that is also the reason why we get mad, or angry or jealous and we get to the point where we lose our faith on something.

I am not proud to say this, but for a time I had given up on love and its derivatives. Although I still strongly believe that in love you sometimes WIN and other times you LOSE, I also believe in randomly daily life events. Those moments in your day when you find yourself smiling, happy, in love maybe, or loving just the way things are turning out to be.

Sometimes, we are so disturbed by all of the negativity that surround us, but it is our job (and in here I’ll use cap. letters to emphasize)
TO LEARN NOT TO GIVE UP, TO NOT BE A QUITTER, TO  NEVER LET ANYONE BREAK US DOWN.

It is the way you stand up when beaten up that makes up a person, that embraces our now NEW PERSONALITY.

SO yeah, LOVE can do this AND a whole bunch of other things!

I beg you, don’t turn your back on love you guys, don’t make the same mistake as I did.

Remember, that I’m your friend. And from personal experience, I know how hard life can be, and maybe NO cross that, there WILL BE situations where you will be left alone, but that’s why it’s called YOUR LIFE.

Make it be a happy, wonderful, loving life!

Sometimes, you just need an outsider’s perspective so you can realize all of the love you have been given!

So go on, go on and break my heart
I’ll be ok, there’s nothing you can do to me
I’m fearless. Better believe I’m fearless

The rules of the game have changed.

It seems that being nice guy, or being the shoulder to cry on, or maybe just being considerate it’s now a unwanted thing (you can say)

I am done trying to emend things, I now get why they use the phrase: Once a bitch always a bitch

I think I’ve said enough, I think there’s more than rock bottom, and I think I just hit it.

Love is just hard, and maybe desperate, but when there’s love but not good love, its just a waste of time. You should know from anticipation that there is no hope for those  who try hard and maybe for those who wait for the right moment when in love.

You shouldn’t change for a girl you like, you shouldn’t say all the things you never said to someone, you should not open up because when you least expect it BANG! it hits in you in your face and the trust is over because that girl maybe dumped you, or maybe cheated on you, or maybe she just sees you as her friend.

And yeah that’s okay, you move on, and you’ll get stronger and you’ll build a wall and you’ll swear no one is going to break it down.
You will lose yourself and you will lose love, like I did.

So yeah, there is more than rock bottom, and when you get there, it gets harder to come out, because the picture is already to blurry, its way too far, its UNREACHABLE.

And maybe being nice doesn’t work anymore, and maybe love isn’t the answer, maybe  but just maybe you need to be a bitch, or an asshole or a jerk so people can see that you’re strong enough and that YOU can overcome whatever.

I always have said that is better to be recognized as the bitch or as the asshole that just steps on people, but you rather be: The bitch or the slave? You tell me

Life is hard, I’m not gonna lie to you, but payback is a bitch and love is an asshole.
Maybe sometimes its hard to see it, the truth because the truth hurts, and blinds sometimes.
You wanna believe that everything’s gonna be ok but in some cases, it can’t.

I WANNA CLEAR that this IS JUST A “GETTING ALL OUT OF MY SYSTEM” post.
nothing else.

You’re gonna miss me when Im gone

I said I loved you in the summer
but will I love you in the fall?

Tell me darling if this isn’t what you want and what you love!

Yeah guys, today’s post is a like post, as some would say… I would like to think this is more of a GOOD POST.

November is the time of the year when everyone starts thinking about everything: Did I did okay this year? Did I worked hard enough? Did I accomplished my new year’s resolutions? Yeah November, sweet november…

As I was standing in the hall on Friday, I realized that it has been now 3 months since the death of our friends, and I couldn’t help but think that life still goes on and … maybe there’s more to life you know?

I now get when people say: live your day as if it were the last day of your life, it now makes sense, because no matter what you did or did not do, it all has it’s consequences. Today is one day, tomorrow it may not be.

As Flora Whittemore said: “The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live”, I now know this is true. What right do we have to make or to not make what we were supposed to do? It’s unreasonable…

So now I ask you, Is it worth to waste our time or our days looking at the past, crying about a broken heart, getting mad for stupid things, making wars and drama for fun?

It’s your choice guys, you have the power TO CHOOSE and no one else can make that decision for you. We have been given the power to speak, the ability to rationalize.

Don’t lose your voice when in a crowd, I know from personal experience that an honest voice is more powerful than a crowd of hopeless voices.

And guys, once you find that place in your life where you can sit and watch how your life is turning out to be, those will be the glory days, OH those wonderful, life pleasing, glory days.